You have the rights to be depress

In every one else's eyes I think I am a happy person,
which I really am.
Most of time I try to think positive,
try to keep the smile on my face,
there are hundred and thousand way to live a life,
so, why choose the depress way?

However, I have to admit that I found out depress is not a way to live our life,
it is a part of live.
Human are born with emotions,
We smile when we are happy and cry when we are sad
This is just natural.

So when we feel sad
why don't we face our true feelings
give us a break from being strong and tough
Have a drink
Maybe cry out loud.
Let the feelings penetrate you thorough,
do it to the extreme
then you will be able to walk away from the native feeling
you will learn how to detach it. 

Today is easter sunday,
a day when Jesus risen from the tomb
washed away our sins,
so we all got saved
but today I found it is very hard to forgive.

You have no idea how many times I have thought of these in last 8 months.
Where did things go wrong...
How...
Why....
If I can I really want to stay away from you,
because I know I could not detach my feeling when you are around.
There is no way back I know,
and I am not stuck anymore,
but feelings can't lie.
Maybe I still love you..
I just need to admit that I still love you
then try to find way to deal with that.

No pain No gain......
Today's mood： Drunk by Ed sheeran

Today is a good day

30th of March
 middle of Easter long weekend
beautiful sunny weather
beautiful mood
Cause I am going home=D

 Come back home was a very sudden decision
No plans, no signs
One day last week I just suddenly felt tired
Tired from Uni
Tired from social
Tired from only sleep for three hours every single day
I wanna take a rest.
I wanna escape.
So I decided to go home.
This is where I could recharge myself,
Home sweet home.

 I don't think the me in last year would ever make the same decision
I was blind but now I see.
now I see who are the ones that will always put me first,
now I see who are the ones that will give me shelter when I get hurt,
now I see who are the ones that are the most important to me.
They are my families and I love them more than everything.

I used to think that we could become families,
but I was too naive and that journey was hundred times harder than I thought
We lost faith
We lost hope
 We lost each other in this big big world
I think I loved you, and I realise love is let you go and see if you come back
I know you won't and I doubt I will.

On the plane I watched a movie called The Silver Linings Playbook and I absolutely love it. When you trying to chase something that was gone forever,
please remember to look back
and you might found what you looking for has been here all the time.
 This is such a random post haha
But today is a good day
I love parallelism LOL

Hello World

Hello world This is Lisa.
This is my first time blogging in English and my writing sucks
I warn you this is going to be random
I don't really know how many audience I am going to have
But I still want to leave something on the world
Share some of my feelings
some of my thoughts
they might be happy things or they could be depressing
no matter what they are what make up me =D
These are little bits of my life.
somehow they could bored you.
I apologise if you can't understand my writing
But it wont stop me from writing.