Well, life is really hard to describe lately. My mind is not on study for sure, which makes panicking, whenever I heard the word 'thesis', I just wanna kill myself cuz I havent done anything for it and I suppose to be halfway through on my literature review. I can't blame on Rod, I know I haven't done enough for it. Well, life is going up and down a lot lately, I was all happy then things depress the shit of me happens.
Start with happy things. One of the thing that really makes me feel happy from inside is that I finally managed to moved on from my last relationship. The break up was in August, it was not bad but after all these year, there was really nothing much left but the desire of freedom, for both of us. I cant really say the reasons that make us break up because I forgot, but I knew both of us, or just me, felt very tiring. Endless compromising and guess what is on his mind made me feel depress every single day. I became jealous easily, had no security, little things like talking to another girl could pisses me off. I felt lonely when I am in a relationship, and then I told myself this is it. I still thanks to the fun he brought to me when we were together, but I know by now that we are not the same type of person any more. And I know I won't look back, so good job lisa!
That is probably the only happy thing lately, or I just cant think of any because I am tired from working on Mech Design assignment. It really gives me back sore.
Bad things start with I injured myself with a big stupid door, it ripped off my entire big toe nail for right foot. Thanks to Eugene, he really helped me, or at lease tried to. I hurts like hell and its gonna take a long time for it to full recover.
Another bad thing is, bad things happened on my friends surrounding me. I felt sad because they do. And I tried my best to impress them.
ohhh I am so sleepy, Life sucks there for shud go to bed now.
good night!!
